Wow! my wife is at her old boyfriends house right now. She is painting his little girls room. She says nothing is going on but I don't buy it. In Oct. she told me she was emotionally attatched to him and not me. She has also changed the way she looks and has bought new clothes. The funny thing is that she was to go over there last weekend and then Sunday. She didn't feel well so she didn't go. When you have an affair, do you try to sneak away often or is once or twice a month good enough? I don't trust her relationship with OM and I don't believe she is telling me the truth. I know is really confussed. She too has been unhappy but she was unhappy before we met. Now I get blamed for it. I am waiting patiently to see what happens. She wants to seperate for a while so she can work on being strong. She does not know if we can be together but she says she would want more than anything in the world. It just hurts too much to think about. I try to not think about it but it just doesn't work. Is she having a hard time picking? Why has she not left? Does this other man want her. She read my journal the other day and asked, "why do you get so mad when I go and paint at OM house?" She then said that "I thought OM was going to take her away from me and that was not the case." Is there something going on or not? How do I know? I guess I just need to wait until she figure what she wants. Now she is beginning to worry about the children. In October she said they would be fine. WTF! I start to believe her that nothing is going on and then I think, "what am I crazy?"
