hug your demons

[needgrace]

i think that dating after D can be treacherous ground..well at least for me tbh

i think that i put up with far more than i should have... ignored red flags...ACTUALLY when i think about it, they were bright red swirling LED lit banners..lol.. and i need to do some work to figure out why...

i think my fears about not being good enough.. which i have had my whole life and which got amplified during the D came up.. hence staying in something that perpetuated that belief and was not healthy.. i think i also got stuck again in the not wanting to be alone mode... perhaps i did not spend enough time healing after D.

i think i have been scared too of the break-up pain... and it is not easy... but it is nothing like the end of my M..

more work to do...

bug, you are welcome.. i love the commitments.