Had an appt with IC yesterday, talked to her about preparing myself for certain situations. (Ie going on vacay and H wanting to tell the girls). She said quit living in fear (again) preparing for the negative makes you negative, he's already hurt me as much as he can. She said my job is to be charming, attractive, fun, etc smile

We did talk about what I can say if certain things come up. But it all comes back to becoming the person I want to be regardless of what happens with M.

I do have a couple of months to prepare but the one goal for interacting with H is being positive. I've mentioned this before but this is def something I will work on.

Something else I've realized over the past few months is that H felt rejected and like I wasn't attracted to him. I will take any nuggetts of wisdom on how I can make him feel that I am attracted to him without pursuing...is that even possible??


Me-44 (45)
H- 50 (51)
M-'96

S-18(20)D-15(17)D-12(14)

BD Feb 2014 (he works overseas)
home Oct(sep rooms)
(EAs possible Pa's unconfirmed)
insists wants D through July 2015
no more talk of D since