Another edit to my first post. I returned from London in April 2013 (not 2014) - so I've been back just over a year now. This return was as fast as I could given the practicalities of winding up our flat, packing-up, quitting and working through my notice period. I did consider staying there as my career was good, and I was devastated/confused, but it didn’t feel like much of a decision as I wanted to see D2 and be close to my family.
For some reason, I've had a hard couple of days. Not hearing back from W on the meeting. I don't think she's willing to do that yet. That hurts because I want to be able to work towards a better relationship for D2. W's not willing to talk or see that her communication issues have been an on-going problem for us/her. This isn't to excuse my own verbal abuse - that can never be justified. But is exasperating that she can't/won't discuss her emotions.
I know I've to detach, and I am far more detached. But I'm also feeling trapped because I care about her and D2 & there seems to be so much "unsaid". I guess, in time, I'll know what to do & may have more appetite to go down a more formal route - even though that will trade-off good relationship between us for D2. How do I get the best outcome? Focussing on myself I am trying to look for better jobs in this city as the current one isn't right for me. London calls but I see that as being very diffcult given consequence of seeing D2 even less.
I do get to spend time with D2 this weekend, and I'm looking forward to it. My parents are away, so D2 and I will spend more time by ourselves and I am looking forward to that (not because my parents dominate, but just cause it's rare).
Bit of a rambling post. Hope the week's treating you all well. Friday tomorrow and that's always a nice day.
