Thanks TL and Georgiabelle. I know I keep saying this, but I am so grateful for this forum. I would have been totally lost without it. I think it has helped me as much, or maybe more, than counseling!
TL, I attended a 13-week DivorceCare group last fall, when i was certain my H was on the verge of filing. I cried all the way home from the first meeting. Couldn't believe this was my reality. Went through the whole thing, and I learned alot, mostly how to be more comfortable 'telling all' in a group setting. That was big for me. And - big bonus here - there are 7 of us from that group that still get together regularly. We have become quite close, and thanks to texting, we are in constant contact with each other. Like this forum, they are so wonderfully supportive, day in and day out. Only 1 person and me are not yet divorced. I will be the last one, if that comes to pass. So I'm feeling a little between worlds lately.
Good ideas for the journal too, regarding the goals. Kind of sad - my H gave me the journal years ago because he thought it would be helpful for me, but I never could quite get into writing in it. Even stranger because I'm a writer! But, this is a good time to start. As far as the lawn goes - made 2 calls today. Of course, they are all overwhelmed with work due to the very delayed spring. Everyone's calling at once! Might be like pulling teeth trying to get them to call back. We'll see.
Had a rough couple of days, but had dinner with my aunt this evening. Feel quite a bit better. These dark days do pass and the sun comes out again eventually (literally - it's been raining cats and dogs here!). Looking forward to putting the umbrella away and getting out the sunglasses again. Thanks so much for taking the time to write TL and GB! I hope things are looking up for you, too, today.
Me 53, XH 57 M 20 (+1.5) years, no kids BD June '13 H moved out July '13 Confirmed long-suspected PA Feb '14 H filed for D Nov. '14 D March '15
