It was a tough one today folks. I don't think I've ever felt this alone in my life.
I know I'm in the midst of WAW withdrawal. My God, it feels like I'm withdrawing from heroin!
For me, the hardest part is obsessing. What is she thinking? Does she miss me? Is she questioning her decision?
I know this is not DB'ing. I just hope and pray that as time passes, so will my obsessive thoughts.
I need to find a way to calm my mind, the gym can only do so much. I'm fighting so hard not to fall into depression. Counseling starts tomorrow, I'm diving in head first and going to really try to make myself feel the feelings that I'm scared of feeling. Does that make sense? lol
