Hiya Tad. You know, my life has been a very difficult one. Since I was born, really. One thing after another. Tough childhood, medical issues, divorce, financial mess and a whole bunch of stuff in between.

And I dont know why, but, I never once thought that it had anything to do with God. I just didnt.

So, I got to thinking about that. I realized that if I blamed Him or my mother, or my xh, that I am a victim. That means that I have no control over my life.

I dont like that. While I know that none of that stuff was caused by me, how I reacted to it was in my control.

My life is still hard. But it's my life. The one I was dealt. And blaming anyone else, including Him, takes the control frm me.

I could sit here and do that. I can say, poor me, why did all this happen? The thing about that is, that it doesnt change it. It doesnt have an affect on it. I'm still right where I was, ya know?

And since I am, I have decided to do the best I can every single day. I have decided to continue to have hope. I have decided to be really thankful for the things I do have in my life.

Some things will never change. But some things can and they have. I dont sweat the small stuff, Tad. I let them roll off my back. I have seen big things, and those small ones are just not important.

I'd like to see you try to stop wondering if God has a hand in what has happened to you. I'd like you to stop thinking that you dont have any control in what happens in your life.

Because you do. You have a lot of control. You control how you react to something. You control how you look at things. You control who you let into your life.

Sometimes it is just doing one thing differently that makes all the difference. Just one thing. That one thing can lead to something else.

Change your mindset, Tad. Just try it for a bit. Decide that today is the day that you are going to do one thing differently.

Strike up a conversation with a stranger. Look into meetups in your area. The parks department by me offers a lot of free outings. Go to the library. There are free computer classes there.

Sometimes you just have to take a leap of faith, T, and see where you land.

I suspect you are thinking of your xw for a few reasons. Let those feelings wash over you.

Do one thing differently, Tad. What's it gonna be?