Hi Luke Could be part of the grieving but more than just my marriage. I LOVE living in Franconia.. so I am grieving the move to the Ruhr.. ugly, nasty area. Losing my dog..my garden.. no more white tulips for me.. or cherries, apples, plums, those funny flat peaches I started to grow here..roses.. lilac.. Lots of things really.. Gratitude. I don't have to live in Gelsenkirchen, best 10 time ever for me,its spargel season, running friends thought to invite me for dinner, Luke sounds good and happy.. I am grateful for that..