3 Months In and Feeling...More Aware

[JennD]

Thanks Upwards. I know that cycling is part of the process and that it gets easier. I just wish I could "snap out of it" and feel whole again.

I don't think I have ever hurt this much.

And to think that the person who should be there for me to support me when I need it most could stop this by just taking one step forward, but isn't, is the worst part.

I feel like H has died along with our M. So I plod along, stronger every day. But looking back often. Hurting and learning.

One thing I wonder, if H and I aren't able to reconcile, how could I ever find someone else, who will understand the new insights of relationships that I'm learning thru DB, IC and self reflections...need a DB dating line...;)

Thanks Upwards. Your kind words mean alot, when I need them most...