Hang in there TL! Loves does exist and it can be wonderful. The only proof you need is people like you and I who, despite all the awful, hurtful words and actions from the very person we have always loved and counted on, we at least tried every way we knew how to keep OUR love alive! We still believed as do so many others who have every right to hate the WAS but treat them with love and kindness no matter what they get in return. Those are the people who PROVE love does exist and it will for you again. Of that I'm certain!
