Feeling really angry today. I think I've been trying to avoid seeing any counseling because I don't want to and thinking maybe I could get along by just posting here and talking to supportive family members. But I don't think I'm okay anymore. After W opened up some on the phone yesterday I'm finding myself really angry. I'm pissed at her for the terrible ILYBNILWY and the "I know it would be for everyones best but I just don't want to". I feel trapped between being nice and just waiting things out or filing D papers myself to get boundaries in place for myself and S. I'm hurt that she still lied to me about PA this whole time and still not admit having slept with OM. I have been trying to settle myself down since this last night and I'm just getting more wound up and having a hard time not thinking about it all again today.


M: 43 W: 43
Married 6 yrs.
T: 7 yrs.
Son 20, 18, 17, 15 yrs. (w/ Autism), 12, 10