I'm glad you're excited abount counseling and are making plans to GAL. Good job on the no contact, keep that up. If you feel the need to contact her, please come here first so we can talk you off the ledge.
I think the anti-depressants may be a good idea as well. I waited a couple of months before addressing that issue, and it helped even me out emotionally once I did get on them.
H: 29 WAXW: 30
Bomb Drop- 9/9/13 Negotiated Settlement- 5/9/14 D Final- 5/21/14 XW has breakdown in attorney lobby- 5/30/14