I don't understand why you continue to look at things so black and white. Conducting yourself with class and honor will in no way make passive with no fight.
For me, I found that conducting my life with class, honor, and dignity took far more strength than letting my emotions run wild. Acting so emotional is just too draining on my energy. There is a difference between strength and energy.
I used my not so good feelings to propel myself forward. Yes, I had some slip ups and backslides... but they became smaller and fewer between until I was moving steadily ahead.
Advina's advice is spot on for is happening now. Counseling is what is going to help you get over what was. The past is like an infection... it needs to be cut out and eradicated. Until you find out just what is sparking this deep seated anger inside you, you can not move ahead.
“Things turn out best for the people who make the best out of the way things turn out” ― Art Linkletter
