Tears, that's exactly right. It really is about him, and I doubt seriously this is something he "wanted" to happen. Try to keep that in mind regardless of what he says or does. In time, the things you're wondering about will become clearer. You'll become stronger and more balanced (if you work on you during all of this) and you'll find out how this will play out.

Until then, focus on you and the kids. Don't miss the time with them because of him. You'll regret that no matter how things end up.

Keep reading and keep posting. It helps to get your thoughts out. It helps not just you but others that are, or are about to go through the same things.

Another poster you may want to look up is RAINE. She has some interesting threads and is very articulate about her thoughts and feelings. 25MLC is another one I highly recommend, as I do Job. All very different situations, but they are all very good at articulating their feelings during their journeys.

Peace,
AJ


"Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter" MLK
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"Yesterday I was clever so I wanted to change the world
Today I am wise, so I am changing myself."