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Eric ,why do I and did I make it easier? I have always tried to do a little extra. She has a medical condition and stresses over her job and loses sleep so I try to make life at home more peaceful. Are you saying I should 180 that?
I don't know about choice , I tell myself several times an hour to stop and just don't think about it ,but it always creeps back in.
Do you want to know what my goals the next few years are now or what they were before? Actually they're pretty much the same. We have a good situation, no mortgage no debt so my plan was for us to see S into a good college, stuff retirement funds let her retire and take trips and probably relocate to where ever S takes a job after college.
W works for a big name federal agency she could retire young and has brought it up. Now however since OM also was M and works for them as well there is a chance she loses clearance and I think she is worried about that and so has flung herself headlong into work to get the most she can, she excels at her job.