Wife's mental illness and hard decision

[Lifes Twists]

So, today I am feeling anger towards my wife. Last year she kept screwing up the divorce regardless of how many agreements we did. All during this period I told her I was against divorce but would not stand in her way. She ran out of money for her attorney and pulled the divorce. This time when I don't say anything but lets get it done she tries to commit suicide 1/2 hour later.

What I am feeling anger about is that I feel like a hostage. Everything that has happened has been the product of her mental illness and the toll it has taken on our family.

Right now now I have decided that she still needs to file for the divorce. I am afraid I will just go through last year again with her screwing it up and lots of money spent.

I am trying to concentrate on taking care of my daughters and myself right now. I am afraid if I were to file she will try suicide again and if she files and I don't fight it she will also try suicide again. I feel like I am dammed if I do and dammed if I don't. Boy, do I have stuff to talk over with counselor tomorrow.