hug your demons

[needgrace]

i feel a strange inertia of sorts... somewhat disconnected.. i was talking to my IC and she sees it as positive, that i am no longer worrying so much about what i am doing wrong, blaming myself, trying to control and "fix things"...

and i agree

but i also need to find a way to keep filling that space.. last weekend i went to a book club, rode 31 miles in a fundraiser for paediatric cancer, engaged in an amazing 90 minute live music yoga class and made solid progress (with help) on a daunting home improvement project...

it was a good weekend in many ways... but i also felt strangely disconnected from others... not sure if it is in a good (i can find peace within myself) way or an isolative way..

i am still doing what bug did so well.. creating a life i love on my own.. finding my way with this.