But I also would not like not sitting next to him because I would feel uncomfortable about publicly NOT acting like I get along with him.

Him being there makes me feel uncomfortable but it is best for the kids. In the ideal world he would hang out with the kids separately from me, but lacrosse games don't afford that option because I want to be at them all.

I don't see an alternative that makes me feel good about attending lacrosse games with him; it is just mildly unsettling, NOT a big deal for me, and good for the boy.

This is sounding more and more ridiculous the more I think about it. I'm an adult trying to do the best right thing even if none of the alternatives thrill me. Suck it up, right?

Adinva 51, S20, S18
M24 total
6/15/11-12/1/12 From IDLY to H moving out
9/15/15-3/7/17 From negotiating SA to final D at age 50
5/8/17-now: New relationship with an old friend
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Happiness is a warm puppy.