[BrightFuture]

Job, Busting, thanks for the advice. I’ve been experiencing some anxiety for the last couple of days and today was the worst. I just don’t want to deal with these stupid drums.

Job, I’m not worried that he would take something else. He is not that kind of guy in spite of his MLC. And even if he would take something, I would not care much. I can replace things, as long as he doesn’t take something that would signify some memory for me. I just don’t want him to wonder around the house and check my stuff.

I’ve been thinking about this all day. What if I tell him that I don’t want him in the house while I’m out and he decides to limit my access to the vacation home? I have all kinds of thoughts rushing through my mind and it drives me crazy. I wish I would be done with it already. I don’t need this extra stress right now, I need to concentrate on work. I think I have until tomorrow to decide and let him know if he needs to come in the evening when I’m home from work. It seems like I’m unable to make the decision, I just want to put my head in the sand and make this issue to go away.

I feel like a lot of anger is rising inside of me and I am almost ready to tell him to just get lost and never contact me again, except for legal matters. I cannot believe I married this man. According to my friends, he is still trying to pick up the trashy women and be friends with the once who drink heavily and behave like teenagers. My male friend also told me that H was talking about selling the condo and moving to a poor neighborhood in Mexico into one of the shacks, because it would be a lot cheaper. How low can this man go?

He is going to take the drums to his buddy’s house and have parties over there. I’m just wondering how long it will last. His obsession with the sand rail only lasted for so long.

I’m going to have a drink… Maybe tomorrow I will make my decision about him coming or not coming to the house without me.