Your feeling about whether or not this is hopeless is just a feeling. It's not a prediction. Is it better to have false hope or false hopelessness?
Get back on track with DB. You really need it. You need to build yourself up so you stand on your own two feet emotionally, because your dependence on him sounds overwhelming. You've got big projects to work on...doing better with your kids is a big one. Do you have ideas for how to parent the way you want to? Don't do it FOR him, do it BECAUSE what happened with him opened your eyes to something you need to do for you and for your kids. He will notice; however it takes time. Use the time to find ways to not miss him so much; wallowing in missing him is holding you back from life and is not going to work in your favor in any way.
Take good care of yourself, because you need it and because that is an attractive and healthy thing to do.
Adinva 51, S20, S18 M24 total 6/15/11-12/1/12 From IDLY to H moving out 9/15/15-3/7/17 From negotiating SA to final D at age 50 5/8/17-now: New relationship with an old friend __ Happiness is a warm puppy.
