Roller coaster and then some

[daring]

FY- thanks as always for reminding me of the positives! I'm a glass half full kind of person but in the thick of it I sometimes get carried away on the roller coaster.....

Other recent positives-
Yesterday roses delivered for Mother's Day. I said thank you and he said thanks for being such a great mom to our kids. This is meaningful for me as when he was in his " mean MLC mode" 2 yrs ago he would talk about how I wasn't being a good mom b/c I was working so much.
Went on our night out last night to a hockey game together. He said he knows it's weird but thank you for going out with him. Then is looking at me wistfully and says he wants to find time to do this more often, but he knows if things keep going the way they are it's less likely. Then says again- I want to try to find a way to do this still.
At home he was clearly interested in more intimacy and we ML. I know I said it was a boundary- and I'm trying but not doing well at that. On the flip side- H's LL is physical touch and I see some serious connection happening ( without giving more details there is more kissing and feeling of true intimacy rather than just sex).
I see that he clearly doesn't want to lose me but is still very overwhelmed and in pain.
Trying to continue to lovingly detach but remain hopeful. He travels this week and while sometimes that makes him more distant I am looking forward to letting my guard down for a few days and just relaxing!!

Happy Mother's Day to all in DB land!!