3 Months In and Feeling...More Aware

[JennD]

Labug - thats so true. It just feels so different. False security is gone. Perspective is amazing...

Not brining up the house is pretty much how I've been operating.

We can stay here for a while - can manage financially staying here as long as H and I are both contributing (which we are and I don't see that changing until big decisiona are made and in our province, a year of seperation is required before D can happen- so that would be Feb 2015)

Mother's day today was good. We went for brunch, bike rides, clothes shopping for summer clothes for the girls, etc.

Only had 2 moments of sadness. At brunch, D6 gave me a card she made at school that was really pretty and had a heart on the front with buttons glued all over it - inside it said "Mothers are like buttons - they hold it all together"...got weepy - D6 took them as tears of happiness. I thanked her for the card and hugged her. Sucked it up and moved on.

The other time was when H called to say good night to the girls. He talked to them and they always hand me the phone when they are done. I usually wrap up the call and pretty much just say hi...okay...good night. Tonight I had hoped that he would say happy mothers day...but no nothing. Just sad.