Tears I'm so sorry you're having a bad day. We all go through that during this sh*t, it's natural. I had a bad day yesterday too for no reason, just sometimes it hits you and you realize you're still grieving. I cried for the first time in weeks, just want the pain to stop and it does ease up a bit. It's hard to put the past away and not think about it, I think we get hormonal too and some days are just worse than others. It's true they are very selfish in MLC and it does sort of hope to think of them as gone, out of the country, some say think of him as dead but I don't feel right about that so I just think he's gone on a long distance trip and I won't see him for a very long time. Change up your house and get rid of things that remind you of that past life. Journal Journal Journal and then journal some more. Go for a walk. allow yourself to grieve. find ways to get rid of your anger in a positive manner, or break dishes if you have to sometimes really loud heavy metal music helps me. or a hot bath and crying. read books, work on yourself. that's the only thing in your control. eventually we learn to let go. we have to. you're not alone, this is his problem, you're not garbage and you will find strength you never knew you had. take it a day at a time, an hour at a time. it does get better.
Me - 42 exH - 56 Married 10.5 years Together 17 bomb dropped 1/6/14 signed papers 2/4/14 H moved out 2/22/14 D final 4/4/14 Dropped the rope 5/17/14 2 cats, 2 dogs
sometimes really loud heavy metal music helps me. or a hot bath and crying. read books, work on yourself. that's the only thing in your control. eventually we learn to let go. we have to. you're not alone, this is his problem, you're not garbage and you will find strength you never knew you had. take it a day at a time, an hour at a time. it does get better.