Newbie - bf suddenly left after 9 years

[Italian]

Kml - you are AWESOME ! What kind of music do you play? I'm a sucker for classic rock myself...

Kml and Lois - Thank you so much for your input. I have been thinking about it this way more and more these days. Althought I seem to be cycling every day through a new emotion, or fixating on a different point... it's kind of draining. My rational brain says one thing, but my subconscious keeps throwing poop at me and messing me up...