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[Barrybran]

Well another weekend is in the books and what an uneventful one it was. I felt lonely last night for the first time in a while. I had a pretty low key night at work and when I got home I felt like going out. Problem is the only place to go was the pub and I didn't feel up to going to the pub by myself. It did highlight that as comfortable as I am with my lifestyle, I do need an outlet. I honestly don't know how I'm going to meet people in this town outside of work. All I know is that I need to find a social outlet. I'll pick up the local paper tomorrow and see what's (not) in there

Part of not feeling like going out was the fact I started work at 6am this morning. Today's shift was quite enjoyable. There was a constant flow of customers without being busy and the girl I worked with today is quite chatty which was nice. I came home after work and my wife appeared to be in a bit of a mood so I steered clear of her and hung out with the kids. A short while later, my wife washed her car and I called my Mum to wish her a happy Mother's Day instead of offering to help my wife. As I was chatting with my Mum, I noticed my wife couldn't reach the top of her car so I went and washed it for her without asking if I could help. My wife made a few comments about things she needed so she could reach the top herself next time. I ignored the comments and continued washing and rinsing her car as I chatted with my Mum. After I finished talking with my Mum my wife started chamoising her car and as she had not used a chamois before, I offered to help this time. She took me up on it and wound up chatting with me a little.

I was surprised by something that happened at dinner. My wife has to work all day on the day of my son's birthday and we hadn't discussed what we were going to do for it. I figured she'd bring it up at some point and that the plan would involve celebrating it later in the week while I did something small with him on the night of his birthday. My wife told me she'd organised for family friends to pick the kids up so they can celebrate with him. I told my wife that I would be home to celebrate with our son, that the family friends were more than welcome to come and join us that night if they wished and that I would like their phone number so I can arrange this. I was expecting a fight or nasty comment and my wife left it alone. She's been cold with me to the point that we can walk past each other at home without acknowledging the other's presence so it's not like this is a positive sign. It is very different behaviour to normal for her though. Either way, I'll arrange the night of my son's birthday and my wife will sort out the proper celebration for later in the week. My birthday is the same week so that should be an interesting week.

I've also had more thoughts about what I want my life to look like and it's throwing up more questions than it's answering. I don't have enough money to do the things I want to do so I have some deciding, juggling and potentially waiting to do. I'm definitely far away from where I want to be.