Claire-DB is worth it... I'm pretty sure!

[JennD]

Hi Claire. I'm on my own this weekend with my girls. I too feel happy/proud but heartbroken/at a loss...

I knew H was not around this weekend, so I booked brunch for the 3 of us. I know both girls have made mother's day crafts at school that they will give me tomorrow.

So we'll have brunch (we never go out for breakfast, so the girls think this is a big treat) and maybe go for a bike ride and to the park in the afternoon. Maybe feed the ducks.

While I'm very tempted to feel sad and weepy and get caught up in the emotions of my R, (And like thats what I would have done a few weeks ago) I know that this will be lots of fun with the girls and we can make good memories from this (good, but yes I'm very aware that they will be different memories than it would have been if H was working for R - but still good).

I need to be more than sad and weepy and broken. I feel like I am in a better place and can be better. Scratch that - I am better.

So while I will feel sad and upset, I'm taking a deep breath and smile on my face and celebrate with those that are here.

You'll get thru it - from what I can read here, you're a good mom who's holding it together through a very tough situation. When all the dust settles, however it settles, you'll know you did the best you could. Your daughter will know it too.

Happy Mother's day...you get thru it!
Jenn