Dealing with an ongoing affair

[PeterV2]

I was having breakfast this morning when she walked in to the house unannounced. I couldn't read her mood - she seemed conflicted. She said she wants to move out of the RH. She was in her dressing room in our house and I asked her if she's going to be moving all her clothes to her new apartment. She said she's not getting an apartment, "why, do you want me to move out of here?" I said no, I just mentioned it because you had said a while back you were thinking of getting and apartment. So it seems that she's thinking of moving back home. Then she put on her work-out clothes and did a work-out in the living room and after took a shower. After her shower she was naked in her dressing room in front of me and put on her panties and bra and asked me I wanted to hold her. Call me weak, but I couldn't resist. She lead me to the bedroom and lay down on the bed for me to hold her. Still fully clothed, I lay beside her and we held each other for half an hour. She said she wanted to see if it felt right. (didn't get a verdict on that). She said she's no longer in her R with the OM. I asked her if it was NC and she said she didn't want to talk about that right now. We talked about our relationship - I know I'm not supposed to until I'm 100% sure it's over, but we were hugging and kissing and talking. She still holds grudges about me viewing porn 8 years ago until I agreed to stop at her request (she had sanctioned it before that). Then she was asking why she always seems to pick men who don't appreciate her until she leaves. i.e. why are you changing now? I told her this is a textbook situation and that relationships can recover and thrive after such an event. She said that was BS. We had lunch, went for a short walk and then she left. I'm not sure if I blew it, holding her, kissing her and talking R when I have no 100% guarantee that the A is over. She did say the OM had too many issues for her to deal with. I think he's going through a messy divorce right now, but W wouldn't comment on my thought. She said divorces can go through in a month (he left her last July) and some people have their affairs better organized. W said to me that the OM didn't leave his W to have an A with my W. I said that's BS. Of course he left his W to be with you. I told her she still didn't seem to understand how men's minds work. There's a lot of turmoil in her life right now and she said that's not the best time to make any big decisions. Yeah, maybe once mum has left the country she'll make up her mind. That gives me about 4 weeks of being prince charming - not that I wouldn't continue to be so for the rest of my life - just withholding from being "unavailable" for 4 weeks. Man, this is a fine and difficult line to walk.