Today is hard. I think because of Mother's Day. I'm trying to learn to detach and GAL but I'm finding it very difficult. The pain is still very strong and I have a hard time with my emotions sometimes. Like today h called our d to be sure she didn't need any help with Mother's Day and that he would call her next week (I guess still too busy to call her daily) to set up a time for them to get together. I don't know why this upset me so much. But I've been crying since she told me. It hurts that he left and even more that he plays these dumb games. On the outside it seems nice of him but it's not. He hasn't spoken to d all week and that's what he calls her about. And the rule of no crying when he is around and go find yourself another man to make you happy. I don't cry around him but he always warns me not to. I rarely see him and I try to not speak to him if possible although he seems to find reasons to push that when a text will work just fine. I don't need a man to make me happy. What a crock. Just like he thinks I should take our d and move to another state. Wow, I didn't know I was that horrible. I don't know this man, he is mean and horrible, so why do I cry over him? I wish I could let go a lot quicker, like right now.
