choosing door #2 - next part in my journey

[TL72*]

I read their posts - good stuff there! I do that thing where I imagine he's gone out of the country instead of dead. Helps me to go on and GAL. He used to travel and be gone all week anyway so it's not much different except that we used to cam every night and now we're at no contact - or dark/dim rather. He texted last night asking if I got his email. I didn't get the text for an hour and half because I never heard it come in. I looked at my email and nothing there so I responded no, nothing there. then he said "yahoo?" which is my OLD account. He forgot I had a new account, the old account name was something that referenced us getting married lol so of course I'm not going to use that account anymore since we're divorced. All our contact since January was with this new account and he never even noticed it I guess... whatever. I found his email and it was just asking for this insurance certificate so I took care of it and responded like he was a coworker. It's always just enough to sort of ruffle my feathers though, gets the mind going right before bed which is never good. I played around with it in my head awhile and then finally let it go and went to sleep. Respond and not react. I still can't believe it's only been 4 months since BD, feels like an eternity.