holy cr@p!!! Maybe just had a really insightful moment re: how W may have felt.

Was watching a video of Brene Brown talking about shame and a "move the body friend" - btw, thanks to whoever posted that here.

Maybe my high expectations for myself, W and kids contributed to a situation where W felt like she couldn't share things or some of her comments related to not being able to have a bad day or feeling like she was on a pedestal that was tough to live up to.....

Almost started crying in my office at work - and that is certainly not my normal style......

If so, certainly not intentional and not the type of S, friend, father I want to be......... Wonder if I was creating a perception of being more judgmental than I really meant to be.....

And if so, how can I possibly convey this to W who seems to want to not be engaged or connected........


Me-48,W-51
M-22,T-24
S- 18,16,9
Feb-Jul '11 Away from Home, after initial B date
Aug-Dec '11 Back at Home on couch
Dec '11-now Same bedroom, room mates only
Dec '14 W files initial D paperwork