you're so right sandi She got angry at me last night when I asked her again. It will be a boys trip and I am building it that way for them but she is really put out that I am now focused on going without her as she always believed I would agree to her coming. Still waiting for her to give me the passport copy. She seems very depressed right now, very rarely smiling and really irritable. I feel a bit sorry for her as I am starting to find my feet on my own and have started to enjoy socialising etc.Whereas she seems to do very little and has started to offer to have the boys more at weekends as she doesn't seem to have much going on. I always feared that for her as our friends have more or less abandoned her due to the things she has done, I think that is sad because we had a really good network and although they are all still there for me I do worry that she will become more and more isolated on her own as she virtually no-one apart from one long time friend.