Spoue tried I didn't, now opposite #2

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MrCas, you're asking actions so if I'm with you....it's talking with pastor, rereading books, going back through journal when I need to know where I've been, seen, or changes.

Discovery of me is still new. I'm still learning how I "work" and why...hope that makes sense. I'm finding I'm still very green at digging into the painful/shameful side. I can recognize the cause of the demons as JFun51 mentioned and he's right it's harder to forgive myself and not dwell on them. The positive is a 180 from that lazy, selfish, depressed, angry guy gives me a way to work through the hard parts that I didn't previously know or think about.

My insights are horrible (I don't like them or I don't think they are complete). I don't believe I've learned enough about myself yet. I do struggle if they are real or if I'm giving enough thought or need more thinking on them. Y'all are helping me in ways I'm not sure you see here so please keep questioning/calling me out.