Spoue tried I didn't, now opposite #2

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Mach1, I do not remember ever post W made, but I do know she is honest and the descriptions of me, my actions, and what she went through are accurate.

You're questions definitely resonate with me and are very intense. It's why I want to think on them for me.

You've hit the nail on the head. I've been told not to have expectations of my sitch because everyone deserves help. Yes I want help and I can understand any apprehension here, with W, with my in-laws, and with my own family. Reason for my seriousness as I learn more about me. Why I journal so much and read a lot of posts cuz others have similar issues, but I haven't quite seen one the same. The bright spots in her posts were reflected in real life by her as well (W noticing changes/improvement back in January, etc). She does quote back to me things I say here so I'm sure you'll know if I am out of line.

I guess what I'm saying is I started asking myself questions end of last year but didn't understand. I started digging, but without the guidance or books in January I was still grasping at straws. It's why I sought out pastor to help council me and started posting. Was afraid before but learned without true openness I won't find the answers or become the man I want to be. I'm sure you may have also read that she was questioning us even before her "done" day in February.

Please advise if I'm missing your meaning.