Originally Posted By: LoisB I wonder if anger is the ball of fire that stops me?? It just comes out like depression when I don't face it or get overwhelmed. Hmmmmmm....
I believe it is. Your anger mostly seems to come from what's fair/not fair.
None of it's really fair. We can't change the fairness of it all.
There is a lot about my sitch that is unfair. An I used to be so angry about it all the time. That anger held me back big time.
But all it got me was anger. Didn't make anything more fair. Now I try to waste as little time thinking about his life vs. Mine.
I struggled to get where I am. No thanks to that Ahole. So I just appreciate where I am, and don't give his life a second thought.
And I have the honor of looking in the mirror every day and being proud of myself
Thanks GM. I'm going to meditate on this today. Try and let the anger lead me to the source, or, at least the next layer of the onion peel.
Finished another big chunk of the yard. Feels good. D11 cleaned out the inside of the Jeep and made it all pretty to help pay off more of her One Direction concert tickets. Life is good at this moment. I intend to focus on this moment.
"You know, it's times like these when I realize what a superhero I am." Tony Stark/Iron Man
“Focus on what you can do, then do it with all your heart.” Lois Wilson
