hug your demons

[needgrace]

Thank you Bug. I follow your posts often and am so grateful for how you share your journey and growth here. Thank you for the reminder of that wonderful day.... funny that you mentioned it as the lady i dated this year was there, i had known her for a few months as a friend and i spoke to her a bit after our lunch... a reminder that even though she is gone, my friends and so much beauty remains... and i am blessed..

and your words are so true, about soaking in all the beautiful moments.. that day was lovely.. reminds me to pick up her other book true refuge...

Wonka, thanks for validating and normalizing my journey... i do take lots of good things out of my first R post D... that I can love again and that s*x can be amazing at any age

yes Wonka I got this... I am okay... thank you

I caught up a bit on some of the sitches and caught some wonderful words by 25MLC on gratitude... woke me up a bit..

i went on a yoga retreat to tulum mexico last month with an amazing group of people..
and learned something important.. i was trying to do an arm balancing stance, crow, and the instructor came over to me and told me to lean forward... helped a lot even tho i am still working on the pose..

the next day we all went to a set of ruins where we could climb a temple.. 192 broken narrow steep stairs.. so steep that they had installed a rope to help you down... i am scared of heights and went up a few steps and came back down..

the same instructor came up to me and told me that i could do it, that he would stay behind me the whole way... i argued with him for a minute then decided to try it... he said to me "NG, i need you to do one thing, i need you to lean in to the rock so that if you fall you fall forward"

i made it up and it was amazing.. it rained on us at the top which they say is purifying

and i realized the wisdom of his words... to lean in, lean forward to all of the challenges life offers us...

i have been working on that since then.. leaning in... experiencing it all... living.