Hi Italian, welcome to the boards, sorry you are here You will find a lot of support here and all the resources are helpful. None of this is your fault. Use the time for introspection and work on yourself, that's the only thing you can control. All the homework that Cadet posted is really a MUST. Like you said after reading through it, it does help give you an understanding - you can't fix it, and you're doing well. It's hard. I won't sugar coat it, it's the hardest thing i've ever been through emotionally, mentally. It does get better though, the more you educate yourself on it and GAL and sort of find yourself. Remember to take care of you - sleep, eat, exercise, laugh, allow yourself time to grieve. There are others on here that weren't married - that doesn't make it any less painful. It was a long term committed relationship that was turned upside down overnight (that's how it feels). If you see the Sandi's rules in the newbie forum, that's also a good read IMO. take care and keep posting.
Me - 42 exH - 56 Married 10.5 years Together 17 bomb dropped 1/6/14 signed papers 2/4/14 H moved out 2/22/14 D final 4/4/14 Dropped the rope 5/17/14 2 cats, 2 dogs
