Spoue tried I didn't, now opposite #2

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I have found a couple of options on the counseling (besides my pastor). You're right I wanna dig into it but even the least expensive option is out of reach for a couple of months. Don't think I'm giving up on the counseling just can't afford yet. I was rather disappointed my current insurance doesn't cover anything but drug/alcohol dependency counseling (I went to HR to find out). My old job did cover up to 6 session. Would be really handy right now.

W & I can handle respectably like you say. We are cordial and although not close as before, both still want what's best for kiddos during this time. My concern is this happening when I'm not around so we can address at time of incident. Not that she isn't sufficiently addressing don't get me wrong, but I guess I figure they need to see a unified co-parenting front rather than only her defending herself.

Sorry for all the babbling. I'm doing my best to keep the details available. Overall I've had awesome days with kids, work, myself, and life in general. Just yesterday, I managed to get 2 youngest to baseball practice, 2 oldest to band warmup, pick up youngest 2 when done, and make it back to 2 oldest band concert. This sounds lame I know, but for me it means a lot to have the chance to be involved unlike before. Obviously W has made this kinda stuff look easy in the past so I smile at my small victories! I was stunned she even sat in chair next to me at concert. She has purposely sat on opposite end of bleachers at baseball games.

OK, OK, Ok, no more W thinking (yes I have MrCas voice in my head)....back to me. Dr. appt has me anxious, very anxious. I don't think I'm worried about the appt, but maybe the unknowns? It will be refreshing to finally have a full go over (blood work and stuff included). Nurse that has worked there for years seemed a little shocked at what I was asking. From what I understand my file had about an inch of dust on it. LMBO.