Wow...you've been on a wild, bumpy journey as you make new transitions and now this?! I hope your surgery goes well for you! (((ng)))
For me, my first GF and break up post-Ms. Wonka did some fun trips around my head too. Once you get through this first "hurdle" post-D, then you say, "hey...I've got this...I am okay." I've faced a lot of stuff as singleton which has shown me some aspects of "me" that I didn't know were there.
Sure, a loving & supportive partner/spouse does make a HUGE difference in the sense that they have your back in facing life's challenges head-on as a united force.
