Hi Luke nice.. gratitude for sound.. Gratitude today Running can take away depression without drugs..I am grateful for that.. and that I can run..
I don't really want to enjoy the nice interactions. it makes me nervous.. I am waiting for another sneaky blindside to be truthful.. maybe he spoke to his lawyer and realised I have been taking the higher moral ground and if push comes to shove.. could be expensive. I am sort of waiting to make new connections when I move. It is going to be hard enough to leave my support network here and start again alone..basically..without making more friends to leave.. I will look at the meetups over in the Ruhr...also sports and maybe a charity.. that would be good for me and my German..
I had the strangest interaction with his sister. if you read her email you would think I had started an affair and destroyed her brothers life???
She warned me to "let him go" or I would have bad karma?? Maybe his whole family is loopy? and let him go where exactly. he lives in his own apartment, does nothing here, minimal financial support.no emotional support.. really what is she thinking. so had a good run tonight, have moved up to the faster women's group.. friends for dinner tomorrow night- cooking Middle Eastern.. Had to watch kids take an exam today, so way too long with my own thoughts.. need to stay busier...
I am thinking to tell him to not bother coming down.. he can pick up his stuff after it is moved...and don't call..he is just annoying but then yesterday was pleasant..
I run when he is not pleasant, told him last time I need to have a run so I don't say something we both might regret then made sure I had my newest pants and shirt which really show I have lost so much weight and I am in the best shape of my entire adult life......he hates people who wear running gear, he hates that I have expensive shoes, and I suspect I can probably outrun him.. I like that
