I'm not convinced Matt is understanding any of our posts. He seems to keep posting his same thoughts over and over... him as the victim in all this.
Matt, I don't say this to pick on you. I say it because I truly believe there is much here for you to learn from. To make things easier for you. But you gotta open your mind and accept some new stuff. Or at least give it some thought. Seriously. Reread what has been posted to you with a beginners mind.
M: A really long time. Crisis: 5 years. She's still worth it.
Life is never made unbearable by circumstances, but only by lack of meaning and purpose. -Viktor Frankl