So I've been pretty much a wreck the past few days. The FB thing really put me in a tailspin. Realized that I've been half-a$$ing DB because my H is not here. However, did have an appt today with my IC. Although, she is not familiar with DB she respects my choices and helps me with my goals. I usually leave her office feeling better. One thing she did say to me that I hadn't really thought of is this: he's confusing because he's confused. I hadn't really thought of it that way. We of course talked about the impeding vacation and she said to be charming, look good, be happy etc. etc. She said he has not dealt with any of the emotions of his decision, and being there he will have to. Makes sense.
She also pointed out (again) that I focus on things I haven't accomplished more than things I have! Interesting, maybe some of the negativity I don't think I have. Something to work on. The thing about me, most of my life, I know what I want/need/should do...it's the action I always have a problem with.
Anyway, IC gave me my job (goals). Here they are: 1) Only deal with what's coming directly at me. 2) Keep it simple 3) Don't speculate 4) Focus on positives, positive affirmations (out loud daily) 5) One room at a time (in regard to messy house)
Something to work on this week.
Me-44 (45) H- 50 (51) M-'96
S-18(20)D-15(17)D-12(14)
BD Feb 2014 (he works overseas) home Oct(sep rooms) (EAs possible Pa's unconfirmed) insists wants D through July 2015 no more talk of D since