Jounaling……

Trying to not miss the small – but normal and important things………….

- Came home from work last night – S8 & S18 were playing on trampoline together. S8 was being very loud – in a happy way. Stood and watched for minute and then joined them for 15-20 minutes and it was silly but also very enjoyable
- Last night passed S16 and W on the way home and stopped to give them gift card I had to use for new shoes for S16. He literally got out of the truck and came over to give me a hug and a kiss. I suppose cynically I could think that he only did it because I was giving him $$$ - but he also does it at other times too. How nice is it that can still happen even at his age??
- W has been filling in for someone at work the last 2 weeks so I have had morning routine duty all to myself. This morning S8 wanted me to sit and watch TV with him so I took 10-15 mins to do that versus sending a couple of emails, etc….. It was nice.
- Remembered last night two small things from W on Sunday – when I was leaving the house she actually asked where I was headed off to (different than showing no interest) and later in the evening said my recent haircut looked nice.

Just getting this out there (mostly for me) to help reinforce some of the positive things going on – even amidst some of the turmoil. Not exactly where I would like things to be but not all bad – and I certainly cannot be a complete ogre and have those types of reactions from kids.

Stay strong!


Me-48,W-51
M-22,T-24
S- 18,16,9
Feb-Jul '11 Away from Home, after initial B date
Aug-Dec '11 Back at Home on couch
Dec '11-now Same bedroom, room mates only
Dec '14 W files initial D paperwork