Back to basics

[LongRoad06]

At the nth hour yesterday, he canceled the hearing and fired his L. I don't have proof of him firing her, but she called my attorney back and said the hearing was canceled. I made the mistake of questioning whether or not he really fired her because he has lied about it before. I dropped it quick, but it still came out. I don't trust him right now, and for good reason. My Life is going to draw up what is called rule 11 paperwork saying there will be no more court hearings until I hear about a military school I want to go to. The deal there is - I could lose my spot if they know I am going as a single mom. It is at my unit level that they would make the call as the school is extremely expensive, and if something came up with her and I washed out or had to leave - they lose the spot but still have to pay for it. I should know by August. I figure that gives me some time to DB and for us both to cool off.

So there's that. He is currently at a big conference for his type of employment that comes around every year. He is flying to another state to make a deal today, and then back in the morning. Tomorrow evening, I have an obligation so he is coming over to watch the kid let since I will be gone until 12AM. I am assuming he is staying here, but I do not know. I guess it doesn't matter if I let him stay here, but it makes it harder to 180 when he's around and I just want to beat him and ask him WTF he was thinking!

Had a friend over last night and she and I had a good talk and it was good company so that's a plus. She's moving further away soon so I am hanging out with her as much as possible until then. This weekend, the kidlet and I are going swimming and to the zoo. Other than that - my first mothers day as a mom I will be in the middle of divorce proceedings. It doesn't sit well with me at all and again - this entire situation is taking a huge emotional toll on me.