choosing door #2 - next part in my journey

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Thanks TL. I will not be getting home as soon as I thought - have to stay out of town until Friday so I won't see the book until Fri night. Will probably stay up real late reading. But I have to get up early Sat and drive college students to Stanford for a tour of their linear accelerator! Hanging out with a bunch of geeky Physics nerds!! What a way to spend a Sat! I figure, how many people get to see this thing?? Not many. Kind of looking forward to it as I am a bit of a nerd.

Thanks for the advice on the friends/family sitch. I've already lost some of 'our' friends to him - actually really disappointed in one particular couple as I think they are responsible for his hook-up with the divorcee. However, had it not been her, it would have been someone else. I just hope there is some way to loveingly convey to his mom, dad, and sisters that right now it's a double edge sword for me. I want to see them, but it makes me sad and I;ll want to talk about him. They will tell me things about him that will make me upset without realizing it because he never tells me any details about his life. It's always very vague if I get any info at all. Yet, I don't want to shut them out. Ugh, it's tricky.

Just got an email from the mediator for more things to fill out and send back - I was doing better until that came along. Yes, it is such a rollercoaster ride - I never liked many rollercoasters.

I know it must be so hard for you now that he has contacted you not to have that little bit of anticipation everytime the phone rings. I still do that just because we texted so much when I was out of town.

So the book covers anger issues? I know I have some of that right now. Gosh, I can't wait to read this thing and make some progress, or at least feel like I have a good source to turn to when my therapist isn;t available. Thank you so much for the lead on this! I also ordered two or three other books - don't have the titles but will get them for you and send along.

Sorry I got so long winded here - I try to practice breavity - not good at it. Ack!!
Take care my friend. ((()))