Wt, good for you for making that doctor appointment. Not so sure why it wouldnt be good to be deemed healthy, though.
So, a couple of things. When you are as angry and depressed as long as you were, getting pulled out of your funk doesnt happen so quickly.
It's great that you are doing more with your kids. Great that you are feeling better. But you have a lot of work to do.
You need to figure out what brought you to where you were and why. You need to own the things you did or didnt do.
Not for your wife, but for you.
Your children need you to be the best you that you can be. You need that for you, too.
Be careful not to try to determine how or what your wife feels (the bitter comment).
I know that you understand that she may be feeling a lot of things because of all the years you have described. And you have said you can understand why she does.
The thing is this. This is your journey. Its a tough one for a lot of reasons.
If you decide to continue to dig deep and do the work, it can be an amazing one.
So, continue to keep the focus on you and your children. Contine to search inside to figure out how you got here. Determine who you want to be and be him everyday.
This is an incredible opportunity to become your best self. Dont give it away. Its too important.
