Is there hope after divorce?

[Pampkin]

I have been away for a very long time! i think that the sitch between my H and I are better. he says that he is very impressed with all of my positive changes. he says he trusts me but do not know why he feels that way. maybe it's because i have changed a lot. im trying to be a better person and a wife thst my H would be a fool to leave. he has been so warm and so kind to me lately. he calls me to hang out often either with friends or just the teo of us.

i took a trip to Asia this last month for 3 weeks. it was nice to get away and forget about how hard life was back home. i missed my H desrly and thought about him all the time. i thought that by not seeing my for a while that H would miss me. i thought minimal contact would help with R. i thought H would want me back when i got home. i expected too much. i know that i shouldnt have any expectations. when H picked me up from the airport, he kissed me very differently that he usually does. before it was a small peck. that day, it was very warm and affectionate. good feelings all over.

a day later, he asked me if we could go to yoga together. we were running errands that day so he had to drop me off at my apartment so that i. oukd change. he waited in the car since i needed only 2 minutes to changed. when i was changing, i got a text saying " going to yoga. be back at 8. call you later." attached to the text was a kiss emoji. he sent the text to me but it was meant for OW. he came upstairs to tell me about her. he said there was nothing between them. they hung out a few times but he said that its not leading anywhere.

im so hurt and confused. i thought that we were reconnecting again. what hurts is that while he was with me, he was thinking of her. adding fuel to the fire, H said that he thought that we would be D by now. he didnt want to sit around being a monk. he also said that he will date other people. i dont know how strong i can be while i wait for this D and H dating around.