Still trying to save my family - part 11

[Scorp7]

Yes, that helps for sure. You're right eric, I am still living with fear and a whole pile of "what ifs". The guilt is still there too. It seems I'm still on a roller coaster with doing better and then falling back.

It feels so odd to not tell her more about my plans since that is what I would expect from her when it comes to the kids. DB is counterintuitive so that must mean telling her less is the right thing to do .

It is SO hard to try to stop mind reading. All that comes to mind when I consider telling her my plans before hand is that she will flip out, deny me access to my kids and that I'll make my sitch worse. How do I stop that thinking???