[Maritimer]

The reason I want to send it because I truly believe I became a spouse only a fool would leave and later she might miss out on saving this family.

If ever the boys ask” what did you do to try to get back with Mommy?” I can tell them I did everything I could to try and reconcile. Feels like I’m sitting idle not trying to save my family.

I feel that while I’m becoming better, we are drifting farther apart. Very few text, no email, no phone calls, no stories about the kids when I’m not around.

I’m thinking what I am proposing in my parenting plan will make her angry and drive her further away. Don’t know why I’m so fearful, Really… how much further can she go from me. I need to look out for me and my boys.

I only begged and pleaded for the first 2 months, I’m thinking 14 months later her opinion towards me might have changed.

No one wants me to get back with her except myself. It could be a sign. Thankfully I have IC tonight to get me back on track.

Thank you for replying PS, Feeling lonely lately.