Hi FY and Nero

smile Thank you so much for leaving me a note.

A quote I saw attributed to Robin Williams went something like this. "I used to think the worst thing in the world was ending up all alone. Now I know its ending up with someone who makes you feel all alone."

What to do, what to do, what to do?

H is embracing his new role as wonder-hubby. Except for that persnickety detail of the OW he'd deserve a t-shirt, or maybe a mug. He mutes the tv when I talk (gasp!) He waits for me to sit with him at the table. He has hung blinds on three windows!! (I told him 5 years was long enough to have tablecloths and blankets as window treatments. And the next day he brought home blinds - and hung them.)

But...but... but that don't impress me much.

And I don't know what to do with that. I know the man is TRYING. Really, he's 180 ed from where he was a couple years ago. His concession on OW is that "J you can read our messages whenever you want... just ask."

And, I don't want to sound childish, BUT I DON'T WANT THERE TO BE ANY TEXT MESSAGES TO READ.

And how long can he keep up this wonder-hubby routine anyway?

I can tell he expects me to be more excited at his new behaviors than what I have demonstrated so far. But ya' know, 20 times bitten...

So, weigh in here please. Do I need to give this more time? Will OW be deleted one day?

I'm so suspicious of his motivation. I feel he's trying to lull me into a hypnotic state so things can go back to our "normal".

And folks, I'll be damned if I'll ask to see his text messages. Just can't bring myself to do that. Not sure if I can explain, but its INSULTING. If he would like to share/remove his password, perhaps I would on occasion stroll through those texts and learn that just as he says its all innocence. But, I counter, for how long? For how long will it remain all innocence?

"I do love you" he says. I say nothing back.

Sign me bewildered as ever...

Take care,

~ Jaye


Me 46 H 56
M 22 yrs
S22, D20, Twin Ss18

You teach people how to treat you by what you allow.
What you stop.
And what you reinforce.
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A lack of boundaries invites a lack of respect.