Magic, If you believe that he was tired, then why continue to think he he didn't want to be w/you? Have you ever been tired and wanted to be alone to rest? It takes a lot of work to be w/someone when you are physically and emotionally drained. Aren't there days when you just want to go home and not be around others?
What is your mind and gut telling you to do? What have the posters told you in the past about accepting an invitation every once in a while? Would you continue to decline coffee and meetups w/friends or would you at least accept an invitation every now and then? Relationships start out as friendships and progress from there. Don't you agree?
You both react to each other as reflections in the mirror. What do you need to do to change that? You have more control over your changes than you think.
No, you don't ignore your frustration...you take a walk, find something to physically take it out on, i.e., like a pillow, weeding a flower bed or something else, i.e., exercise, etc. Magic, you have your own destiny in your hands...use your mind and think of ways to deal w/your frustration versus the knee jerk reactions you have that end up putting you back several steps.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
